Rod and I have started a new career as Respite Workers dealing with teens-adults with a variety of socio-forensic problems. Every day is different, every day is unique, every person is unique.
What I find intriguing is that every experience tears down some of the preconceived ideas that I held dear, that seemed to give me a basis for my existence on this planet. It is replaced with a need to” Live and Let Live” far more than I ever lived my life before.
There truly does not seem to be a “right” and “wrong” way anymore. Yes, there are acceptable ways to behave in society in order to not cause harm to others, we all have a responsibility to protect the rights of others, but it is not as stringent as I was raised to believe. Spontaneity is a wonderful attribute to rediscover as an adult. What is wrong with lying out in the wet grass in the middle of the night, staring up at the sky as the rain falls gently on your face. It took a very special young man to teach me that.
I have always considered myself to be fairly non-judgemental in my dealings with others. Apparently, I was wrong. So my new motto truly is: Just Dance!
She sits there looking so achingly beautiful, mocking me. All she wants is to be held and caressed, listened to, brought to life, and be allowed for her chords to resonate. She is not asking too much, but I am afraid of her realizing I am not the one to release her inner vibrations.
She enticed me to bring her into my home four years ago. So much hope and promise for our new-found love, for that is what it was, love at first sight. I had a dream you see, and one day she presented herself to me. In my desire to possess such fine beauty, I tossed caution to the wind, and carried her back into my world. At first our relationship was very much give and take, and we both understood, without using words, that we needed to feel our way slowly into our combined rhythms. Her patience was unbounded, but alas, my confidence waned, and fear took over my psyche.
I read an apropos quote today on the internet from Goddess Meets the Buddha:
As my eyes open to a new day, I give thanks for being here to experience whatever the day may bring. I slowly stretch my muscles, and am grateful for the feeling of strength that I still experience even in middle age. My feet slide to the floor and I reconnect with the Earth, I try to ground from my dream filled state, and begin to think of what will come after my first cup of steaming coffee.
Waking up everyday is a marvellous ritual that we have all performed since birth. We may choose to differ that ritual as we gain wisdom and experience, it is our prerogative. Just knowing that each day holds new beginnings, an opportunity to take a chance and do things differently is such a wondrous gift.
Today for example, after my much appreciated caffeine intake, I chose to take a moment to meditate. Just for a moment, but it enriched the start of my day immensely. In fact, when I found myself later in the day getting stressed, I was able to recapture that moment, and breathe through it better than I would have otherwise.
You now know that I am on a mission to “clean up” our diet and live a life that is more wholesome, and less filled with chemicals. My passion wants to take a large garbage container, set it up in front of the fridge and start dumping. My wallet says , “um…I don’t think so”! What is a lady to do? Well, for starters, as I finish up a salad dressing or condiment, I will replace it with a health conscious version. For example here is a recipe for an incredible salad dressing:
Julie’s Salad Dressing kindly supplied to me many moons ago from the Owner of Heaven on Earth in Qualicum Beach, B.C.
2 c. olive oil or 1 c. olive oil plus 1 c. flax oil
1/4 cup organic apple cider vinegar
2-3 tbsp. Spike Seasonings
2 crushed cloves of garlic
1 tbsp. stone ground mustard
1-2 tbsp. oregano*
1-2 tbsp. thyme*
2 tbsp. dill weed*
1 tbsp. Tamari Sauce
Place all ingredients in a jar and shake well, or whip up mixture in a blender. Refrigerate.
*Any herbs that you like most work well.
I used to make this when my children were little, then extreme laziness took over – I mean how difficult was this recipe to whip up??? Have you looked at the ingredients list on your favourite bottled dressings? Ewwwwwww!
On my mission to “clean up our diet” I will be focusing on using up what I have already purchased, and then looking for recipes that I can make up fresh. There are many sites on the internet to check out for starters, we don’t need to go it alone.
Another idea would be to start talking to your friends about what changes you are going to make in the New Year and brainstorm together. You will be amazed at the resources our closest friends have available, and how many times we are all on the same page.